guess wat..

mj session is on tomorrow.. =P

was tellin this crew on my jakarta flight yesterday mornin that i didn't sleep coz i was playin overnight mj..

we were talkin & talkin then i guessed he got tempted & asked if i wanna play mj in london..

i thought he was kiddin but he said he really got e travel set..

so yup.. i'm lookin forward to my london flight tomorrow.. =D

abit sianz that i have to wakeup early for the third consectative day though..

can't wait to come back from london too..

then it's my batam trip with jill liao.. *woohooz*

will be visitin night safari on 25oct with my sillies.. =) *hee*

coz..

night safari will be havin a halloween party over 4 weekends from 10oct onwards.. night safari will be transformed into a haunted forest..
round up your girlfriends & hop onto the train of terror or walk through the eternal torture chambers for a scarefest u'll never forget..

sounds fun right..

so i sms to ask my sillies if they wanted to go..

all gave me positive replies within 5mins.. =D

*lookin forward*

pea asked me not to bite her.. --_____--""

f.y.i ticket price is 22bucks per adult..

datz all~

*muackz*


just reached home from my mj session..

as usual we are like catchin up instead of playin mj..

imagine spendin 3hrs on 1 pok..

so u can count we only played 2 poks.. *haahaa*

won 16bucks.. *hee*

goin to get ready for work soon!

i can't wait to be back..

can't wait for nor to be back from macau too..!

datz all~

*muackz*


me & jill's batam trip is confirmed liao!! =D

3D2N at Batm View resort..

from the pictures.. it seems like a nice hotel..

we wanted to book a suite room but their suites wasn't ready for bookings yet.. =(

so in the end we settled on the one bedroom villa.. *heehee*

more expensive.. but supposed to be much nicer too..

a short getaway for us..

we are so goin to relax and pamper ourselves..

shiok shiok shiok.. *can't wait*

upon confirmation, we realised that the price of 484 which we thought is for the room and breakfast only & maybe transfers is also inclusive of:

1 Set Lunch (weekday) or 1 Buffet Lunch (weekend)
1 Set Dinner at Kelong Seafood Restaurant

what a pleasant surprise.. =)

goin for mj session soon!

hope i win k..

need $$ for my batam trip.. *keke*

datz all~

*muackz*

i'm a happy girl... =)


did a KL 4 sector today.. (meanin SIN - KUL - SIN x 2)

the flight wasn't tough.. but it's mentally tirin ar..

anyway.. still got enough energy left to meet pea to go cine to catch mamma mia..

super nice show i think.. i like.. =)

ben came to send us home after that..

when i looked at him carefully.. i realised he looked very tired..

& this silly boy was wastin his time & petrol in town for like an hour waitin for our movie to end..
(he was around town area with his friends earlier on)

his reason bein: at least pea & me will be happy since we don't need to waste $$ on mn cabfare..

i forgot to tell him.. me & pea plannin to take NR back de.. since long time no take le.. but since got offer to drive us home.. there's no reason to reject right.. =P

sometimes he is so sweet..

at times to the extend that i feel bad.. guilty.. or even pressurized.. =X

anyway.. i think my eyes not 3/4 closed & i'm not thinkin properly liao..

i goin to lala land le..

datz all~

*muackz*


went st james with jk & lmm last night..

it was a crazy night.. =D

we drank very little nia but don't why so high.. *haahaa*

we even locked jk in the toilet for like 3hrs & we continued to party..

did some paisei stuff too..

e paisei-est part was i saw 2 familiar faces there.. =X

but i guess it was a fortunate thing as well.. coz they were keepin a lookout for us the whole night..

saw guy in msn just now.. & he told me.. we spent 2hrs+ lookin after u girls.. didn't managed to go know girls.. *haahaa*

gam xia lor.. *hee*

ben came & sent me home after that..

he was angry with me..

i remembered him sayin he is angry with me for not takin care of myself though he knows he has got no right to be angry coz he is not my bf..

actually i also think so.. =X

i don't want a bf now is also partly because i just wanna enjoy & do whatever i deem like without feelin bad or havin to report..

but i do know he is very worried & i feel bad..

3 of us went clubbin & so many people cannot enjoy themselves properly.. =X

datz all~

*muackz*

p.s. we will takecare of ourselves next time.. =)




was browsing through his friendster & saw a testi i left for him 1.5yrs ago, wishin him gdluck for his first day of work..

we were so happy then..

what happen to us along the way?

i rem goin to tenah merah station to wait for him every weekend when he was in tekong..

i rem the only time i tried baking was a chocolate birthday cake for him..

i rem i wrote him 101 msgs in a bottle & cut the satay sticks till my hands hurt..

i rem paintin his toe nails red when he was sleepin & he got a shocked thinkin they were bleedin when he was awake.. *haahaa*

i rem we went to bury my guppies together when they died..

i rem buyin him mac breakfast & went to his house early in the mornin whenever we quarrelled..

i rem he said when he applied his first credit card.. he'll sup it for me..

i rem about 1 year ago everythin changes..

i rem he no longer hugged me to sleep coz he says it makes his hand numb..

i rem we no longer do things together at home coz he says he got things that he wanna do & he don't want to do the things i'm doin..

i rem we started talkin lesser coz he said he wasn't interested in hearin abt my job..

i rem we stopped talkin on the phone coz he says we were seein each other like everyday..

i rem he stopped tellin me he loves me coz he said i should have known..


am in hot hot dubai now..

will be goin to moscow tomorrow..

& guess wat.. e load is super light!! *keke*

this is goin to be a pictures' post.. =)

03 Sep.. met ben for awhile..

to..



he super excited lor when we reached.. *haahaa* this no tong nian guy.. =X

u can only see what the picture is from the reflection..

e guy who drew the picture is smart!



can u spot 4 persons?



do u know which are the fishes?





dream car..



was supposed to go night safari with jill & ting..

but it was rainin so the ticketin person advised us to come back another day..

so the 3 singles decided to go wine drinkin after takin afew pics outside night safari to prove we were there.. *haahaa*













04 Sep..

met jill for dessert at MOF.. & collected info for our batam trip..

we should be goin from 26-28Sep.. =D

i also dropped by cousin's house & saw baby ethan for the first time..

5 months old le..



after that i left to meet gy & friends..

it was only when i met them up.. i realised it has been a long long time since i rot around with them in t.w at night..

time flies.. we've known each other for 8yrs le!

05 Sep..

finally saw nor after so long..

too bad ky fell sick & couldn't join us for the steamboat session..

ky session with gy & friends after that..

taken in e lift..



now u know how clear are the mirrors in the lifts of my block..

2nd try..



passed! =)

06 Sep..

was supposed to meet agent for makan..

but for unknown reasons.. my eyes were swellin.. so i cancelled the meetup..

he offered to come bring me to doc.. -___-

but he was sweet to offer lar..

i refused to step out of my house with my swollen eyes.. & ben bought kfc for me.. *keke*

it was a nice rottin day for me.. =)

07 Sep.. Sunnies' meetup.. =D

dua bee is treatin us coz she finally got in SQ..

we are as happy as her.. & we so goin to "chop" her..*haahaa*

so off we went.. to Mandarin Oriental's Melt for buffet dinner.. =D =D



so we shun bian celebrated her belated birthday..

cake from the hotel..





the hotel took a pic for us using their camera..

it was a pleasant surprise when they handed us a card with the picture inside.. =)





we ate for 4 hrs there lor.. =X

i think they also can't believe 5 girls can eat so much..

then it was pictures' time.. *as usual*









we forced dua bee to hold the camera like XL coz she always like to hide behind us when takin pics..

but don't know why she look ghostly.. all of us behind look nice.. *haahaa*



this is better..



went clarke quay to cut the cake we bought for dua bee.. *requested by her* =P

i chose it.. looks yummy hor..





the partners in crime.. *da bao from hotel de* =X

still so proud.. take picture somemore..

JK LMM & i don't want to see..







** ben said xl is abit prettier than tm..

he said jk is the prettiest.. =) (which i think all the 4 of us agree too..)

so what do u all think..?



LMM aka LY.. dua bee aka TM.. XL.. JK.. & me.. =)

datz all~

*muackz*

p.s. i gained 3kg in 3 weeks.. *sigh*


watched 4bia with jw on 1sep..

i was so scared lar..

& can u believe it..? i actually bit him.. *haahaa*

but e funniest part was.. he was actually closin his eyes.. (obviously scared too) & because of my bite he got a shock & opened his eyes & watched e whole scene.. *LOL*

anyway i was like pinchin him throughout the entire show coz i was timid lar..

then we realised his hand got a little blue black..

& now 4days later, he just msged me.. sayin his friend saw e blue black.. he damn paisei.. *haahaaahaa*

off for steamboat(yay.. nor will be joinin) & ktv session later..

life's gd when u are on leave.. =)

*muackz*


just now when i was in cab.. a tear rolled down my cheek..

but i know that one tear cannot be compared to all the tears u have shed for me..

i miss u.. but i can't tell u..

i do wanna know how u r gettin on now but i can't ask u..

124 will always meant somethin to me..

i will always rem 0209 is your birthday & 2507 is our anniversary..

i will rem u once folded 257 paper lilies for me.. & e happy times we spent together..

e last present i can give u is to make u move on & give u all my blessings..

happy birthday my dear..

& take gd care..

**************************

it's only after we broke up i realised how much u understand me.. when u told me abt me..
& i realised how much u loved me..




Tree,Leaf, Wind

I really love the verse "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay".

==Tree===

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees.
Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting.
I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U.
There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her.
She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm.
She is just a very ordinary gal. I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility.

Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me.
I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish.
I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her.
I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her.
The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years.
She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director.
When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off.
The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut.
I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day.
When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something.
I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her.
There was once when both of them quarreled.
I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend.
I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend.
The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened.
I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out.
After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her.
She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too.
I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together.
I know who's the guy. He had been going after her for quite a while.
A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.

I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her.
When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it.
It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath.
Wanted to shout but can't.
Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry.
How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp.
It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then.
It says "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

==== Leaf =====

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why?
Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes alot of courage.
During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy.
ot BGR kind but as buddy kind.
But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy.

The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon.
It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit.
They were only together for 2 mths.
When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness.
But after a mth, he got together with another gal.

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me?
Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move?
Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt.
Time after time, my heart was hurt.
I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love.

But, If he don't like me, why does he treat me so well?
It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend.
Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits.
But his feelings towards me I can never figure out.
You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side.
Care for him, accompany him, dote on him.
Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me.
It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms.
I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me.
Because of this, I waited for him.
The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up.
Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting.
The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me.
Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly.
From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart.

He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree.
In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart.
I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land.
Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?


==== Wind ======

I like a gal called leaf.
Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind.
A wind that will blow her away.
When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school.
I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer.
During ECA time, she will always be sitting there.
Be it alone or with her friends looking at him.

When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes.
When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes.
Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed.
I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness.
The senior was also not there as well.
I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her.
Tears were in her eyes while he left.
The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him.
I walked over and smiled to her.
Took out a note & gave to her.
She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note.
The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.
Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away.

It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls.
I know that the person she loves is not me.
But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me.

Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times.
Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up.
If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over.
I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend.

I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone.
I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?"
She said, "I'm nodding my head".
"Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly.
I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell.
During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?


so happy neh..

taipei trip in dec is confirmed le..

at the moment it's me hui & ky..

yeah.. off to visit js lor.. will be celebratin our birthdays together as per the previous 12yrs.. =D

just waitin for nor to confirm if she can come along then we can go ahead to book tix & hotel le.. *yeah*

i'm goin for mornin run on sunday..!

managed to "persuade" =P hui & ky to come along..

i need to lose weight!

datz all~

*muackz*

ying

YY aka birdie aka black blur bird (by NOR & PEA)
16 Dec 1985

greedy.. petty.. predictable yet unpredictable.. fickle minded.. lazy.. a glutton.. insensitive.. overly optimistic.. noisy.. stubborn.. ridiculously unreasonable.. do whatever i feel like doin.. speaks whatever that comes to my mind.. this is ME..

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nua-ing
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travellin
watchin movies
daydreamin
surprises
bullyin hui aka pea together with nor =P =p =P



lose 4kg!!
hair to grow long
watch an indian movie *keke*
a new chio chio danglin stud for my belly
skydiving
donate blood
visit an orphanage
buy mummy an expensive watch for her this year's birthday
go Korea with sillies
go Hawaii
go Las Vegas
visit the Six Flags Magic Mountain theme park in LA

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